The Tales of an Oompa Loompa

I’m with such a wonderful person. Someone who would give the world to me and then some.. But like everybody else, we have our problems.

She says I’m lazy, I’m childish.

I say she’s cold and unfeeling.

I can be lazy, I can be childish.

She also is definitely cold and uncaring.

I miss that crazy in love feeling that you get with someone when things start. For the longest time I thought I was incapable of feeling that way ever again. I thought it was something you lose when you grow up. You don’t. It’s still there.

Mine simply is in hiding. Why?

Sometimes I feel like we act like roommates. There are times where we are completely silent, except for arguing. The arguing has gotten better, but we sometimes just lay next to each other and not talk. We sleep back to back. When we sleep in the same bed. I work night shift, she works first. I try to kiss her, she ends the kiss. There is NO intimacy anymore, unless it’s on her part getting it.

I don’t want us to end, because I know if we ended I’d be devastated…. I really do love her, but sometimes, I’m not happy. I find myself missing the past more than anything. She doesn’t try to give mephysicallyand emotionally what I need. She says shes incapable of it. She wasn’t at first… So is she just with me still because she doesn’t want to be alone? Sometimes I feel this is the reason she’s still with me. 2 years in, and so many things are already non-existant. What are the rest of our lives going to be like if we’re like this now?

A few months ago, I started accusing her of falling for her best friend.I still think that she is sometimes.She was accusing me of cheating on her with my ex girlfriend,theex girl friend, Kassy. Was I? No. So you know what I did, I pushed Kassy out of my life. And since I’ve done this, I feel miserable.

Kassy was such a huge part of my life. I met her online when I was 12. We started dating when I was 15. Dated for a year. In that time we became every fucking romantic movie couple, but The distance and our parents destroyed us. I died over her for years. Chased her. Wrote her way more than 365 letters. She left me for someone that was abusive, and she would randomly come back to me. Finally, one day we met in person. I drove all the way to see her with my friends. I can remember her PLOWING into me when I got out of the car. She knocked the breath out of me, knocked me right off of my fucking feet. Then she had to go to work, and after work she came back to the hotel room.

Wedanced.WeCried.Shekissed me. That’s all we did and it was so…. incredible. The next morning, we had to leave. She came over early, we watched the golden girls, and just laid there kissing. We couldn’t get enough of it. I had to leave, we both cried again. After that, she called me.. snuck away from her life again to tell me she was so much more in love with me and it was so hard watching me leave. A few weeks later, I went back with another group of friends and she decided to leave her life in NY to come be with me. The entire 7 hour drive back from New York, we kissed and kissed and kissed. I didn’t think I had lips anymore. We came back to my dorm, and made love. She was my first.

The next day, the “cops” called me. Her abusive girlfriend reported her missing and she knew she was with me. That’s when it went down hill. Like, really down hill. She was frightened all day. We drove her to pittsburgh to catch a bus, and I remember letting her out at the bus station. It was raining. I hugged her one last time…. I walked into my friends car, and just died inside. I let everything out in tears.

I laid in bed for days. Did nothing but cry. Her sister called me, had no idea we met each other finally.

the next few days, Kassy calls me and flips out on me because her sister threatened her abusive girlfriends life and I guess she got beat for it. She tells me she hates me and we can’t talk anymore. But what does she do? She comes back again, when I’m with Jenn.

This time, she’s telling me she’s leaving Karlee. And she did.

We could’ve got back together. But I didn’t. Why? Because I can’t imagine my life without Jenn.

The point of this entire story is that I’m unhappy sometimes, and I just wish Jenn would do the things Ineed.

I’m dying for the affection so much, I’m literally re-living the past.

I love my life, but something is missing. I hate this emptiness I’m feeling every single day.

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